history teacher 'the one if only(2)' act 1

 💛get to know Crush (game of cards reference)

💚i was scared of the situation (railway station)

🩵i regret my behaviour forgive me

(i am so sorry for myself)

💛ral lehlam tang in ka lo thlir ang che

mahse ka thihna khum ah tal chuan min zai sak rawh aw🩵

ill watch you from some distance 

but atleast would you mind sing for me in my dead bed

for all, i belong to you

sincerely, by the power of english and maths

it was nice knowing you

because i found peace in your voice 

sa

a photograp was an excuse for having you next to me

I posted a song exclusively for you

i posted a song only you can hear

what we had on abhayapuri 

you find cool in my happy

which is very rare by the way

thank you for sharping my pencil

kq mut i ti buai ve a

mahse ngai ah ka siam(reset sleep schedule 

my brain analyst on things u do

the trip was the best thing that happened to me or so i thought 

I don't think I'll be back here again I don't think you be back here again

you are so innocent I don't hate you

i don't need your saving

its true...i have a crush on you

forgive me that I ever had a crush on you

i felt sorry for even crying for you 

i only need you so that i can write my songs anyways...

you're not that deep

you're only an ink i can use for a short time

you absence created a void in

you're not my friend 

but thank you for being nice

mi be ziah suh

i fel si😠

but single component is going to save you

all you see me is depressed 

i fave yiubww

what is all this nonsense you ask 

there's nonsense is that i love you

forgive me i usually do this

i hurt myself in my own world

the power of a tear

as you were so disappointed

when everyone notices

but dares to speak none of it

crying by the towers cause you wont be there

our paths were parallel 

but you hit an asteroid 

you changed directions

and i met you only for a little while 

i do have an alternative 

but he's not yours 

college is hard as we didn't interact 

dont talk to me?

okay, you hate me

i still wanna pass out on your laps

kan induh chhawk in ka hria

do you want me to want you or not!!!

you are giving so many mixed signals

so exhausted i can finally leave

cwe're done

the distraction was a glass breaking harder than it ever was

im no one unique

just someone who loved you

if i lost you

that means i had you 

and i cant tell your bestfriend shes safe with me because shed definately tell you

i want you 

i want you

i want you so so much

and for the first time ever of saying this

i am missing you 

sometging a part of me is missing

i cant gobto you today

but ill look at you pictures

this weight of depression that I have been carrying around since we left

youll name your first son aldrin

and ill ask you to sing in my dead bed

i still imagine kissing you

so boldly and randomly 

you were not ready

but you might let it happen anyways

because you are curious too

where would that lead to

would we be able to hide it like jake and ennis

when has my favourite songs become so relatable

ask me if we could go somewhere else 

if we are going to kiss

faith brought us togethed again

i cried alot that night

but i blame you the most

i was so worried 

and youre welcome

you are so nice

id rather you not

mi zawng zawng in an duh che ti ilang chuan ka daw chiang ngawt ang

but i was never the same after the railway insident

he was a smoker

i was a tobacco free area guy

it has never been the same since

my best friend said i was not the same anymore after

thank you for making an acception

just this once

and then we returned to our normals

but i was never again normal

one cry in your reputation is ruined

one cry and everyone laughs at you 

the only thing precious about me was my charm

where had that gone to

but you can read my language when i speak 

most people missed that

no contact, anticipation, let down, hate, disappointment, lonely, morn, took pity, forgive, rinse, repeat 

i walk everyday 

but where was our relationship leading 

ka lung hi i va han dum em DUM!

she know this is that I was not the same after the trip

im not afraid of you anymore 

you know that i want you 

so what the fuck

i love you so much 

please dont die before i do

meidil a...

A bulah min hruai daih tawh alawm

dont feel too sorry

it was not 100% your fault

i lung ka tih awi loh chuan min han hrem ve reng reng chhin teh

mi status ah ka zawng che

a chhan chu vawinah khawnge i awm

our drunk friend outed you

said you had a gf

but im okay, i laughed it away

there is a lot of things that I hide but this aint one of them

ka lung a leng ee

for months noone knew why i was so down

but if i was your husband

i am fragile, i am brittle

please take a good care of me

kan ni ang miah dawn lo tih chu a chiang e/sa

mahse zo ka hmangaih che

but honey when do you sleep actually 

hence confirmed 

you are my girl

im only aesthetic for you(both narrative ways, dress up for you/i am only a good looking)

we were parallel lines

something hit me or was it you

then i had you for only a while

destined to never meet each other ever again 

i am your priority 

you make me your priority 

that is so cute

awwww that is so

how about a long ride home

at night' 

just us

i love you

ka fing tih kha lo hre kur sia

act mai mai ani tih kha lo hre vek sia

i bulah chuan a ât der theih loh

you invite me to a trip 

i didn't give you any answer you want 

min hua nge min duh pawi i ti lo tih pawh ka hrethiam lo

the best day of my life was the day i found out that i can i could have you

ka chhang ngam thlawt lo che

mi hrechhuak palh ang

tichuan ka pehhel ta ringawt a

concidering, pending, long pause

no straight forward answer

you could figure out that i want to

i fel lutuk vangin ka chhiar sual fo che pawh a ni mahna

wanna hold you between my arms and watch tv with you. heck radio would work too

still thinking that i hate you 

but honey what was i even doing 

ill just go

you have someone 

and she seems nice

i like spending time with you

you already know that

next to a whether mill summer.

next to you

my soul is peace next to you

i can juggle some English 

and so do you with history 

(i subject thlan zawng zawng kha boring ka ti ve/ chu vang chuan aniang kan ṭhut dun ngai re re loh, mahse tunah chuan ka hmu tawh che. khawnge ka mit a lo awm, khal deuh deuh in min lo tibuai aniang)

im so dragged to reality now.

i betrayed my culture but you showed me that i was wrong

midangin an bia che tih ka lo hmu a.

ka thik duh angem le

don't leave me with my thoughts I will over think

yes i have you number 

but im afraid youd get fed up of me

nui ka tum ve hrm hram asin 

a va har ve

 

i was horzontal line you were verticle

empty life is so empty

avoid me if i tell you

its okay. im already lonely

ghosting causing shame

sorry fam. i thought you was gay

ma faut ma faut

where in hell

dont tell anyone 

congratulations 

ive been doing that since forever 

you play what ever you play

im gonna study tonight

for you

i was overdramatic

overthink

overreacting

i often treat people with silence whne i disliked what they did

i felt you did the same so what the hell was i even doing

 

can you play guitar 

i was feeling like it when i imagined youd play

when i look at you

i look down

to tell myself that i cant have that

you in general, 

ive been so sad cause i cant have you 

i was your sunshine at night 

now everyone knows my sad

midang chu biak loh pawh pawi vak lo

mahse kan inbiak loh chuan engnge maw hi a ruak ruih

i said i missed you all but i only miss you

but heres a thing about you honey

you love to make me overthink 

youll learn only facts

but i do it with emotions

we look into details 

and thats our similarity

thats our only difference baby

and even on days that i over think

over analysed.

you were still so kind

so i leaned back to you

yes i want to go camping with you

yes i want a go lost in a forest 

when we're walking home almost late evening...

we'd be in a hurry and i want that

please know that i wont give you direct answers because i dont waht u to think that ive been thinking about this but i have wanted this for so long.

yes you, i wNt u ... no one else.

you are not my sunshine and thats okay 

kan duhzawng inang loh em avang a ṭhu dun miah lo tur kha kan nia

mahse Ql ah khan an lo sawn vek ta che u sia

mahse chu bak chu kan inhmu lo ang

its really easy for me to go above and beyond because ive been thinking 

literally , thats all ive been doing 

i don't hate you but wanting you from a far corner is of no use

because ull never like me the way i liked u

i hate you but i still love the idea of falling asleep by your chest 

i pa bawk sia

mi duh ve dawn lo tih ka inhrilh nan a ngai lo

mahse ka ngaih ziaaaa che hi

ka ngei eee hmeichhia chu ni ila ka pan nghal ang che mawle

i love you so much it makes me mad that i cant have, lonely in missing you, sad with realisation and finally followed by mad again

dont put me in the spot 

dont put me in the spotlight 

because i have a crush on you

and i am so sure that you don't want that

ill be smokinh all the weed with you

its kinda romentic if yiu think about it

i wanna smoke my lungs its true

i wanna do it til the lights lay low

ill be reading cards about you

until you and i end up in a sofa

can you let me a 2 because i've been thinking about this my whole life

only a gap

 of a bed between us

smiling through the pain in front of you

inhre miah lo tur kha kan nia

but faith in the forth semester

people stopped preparing they're nice 

and so will you

tha k you i relate to every love song now

i love you only 

dont blame yourself 

its all me

youd find it wierd or awkward

but i should have taken a picture of you while you wear your glasses.

damm you slut

mi chhaih vel mai mai laaah

a nuam tawk vel lek khan

im converting this straight Presbytery boy

wish me luck 😆

you are so obedient

it's not you it's me 

 you have shown way too much kindness 

 that it's having an effect on me

first time i SAW you i said "i want this"

are you mad at me

ars you just as puzzled as i am

im not even sure if i hate you or not

the state that i am not

dear diary,

mi zawh khalh a, ka zawh khalh bawk(both ways... the words of question and 

hlim ver ver na 27 march khan ka nei

ka zak lutuk mahse maw a nuam veng veng

vui na tur ka nei hnem.

mahse maw i bulah chuan hlim chauh ka hmabak

i bula ka awm theih loh changin ka optimist na ka tibo thin a. mahse tunah chuan hlimna.

ramnuni khan a sawi dik ka ti, nangmah neih kher che ka ngai lo, mahse ka duh lai vel che moment hi a nuam tawp

its an honour to see you from distance

keichu uniform ha thlap thlap ang kha.

nga chu pal zam theih phawt chuan ti reng ang kha😚😊🫠

neih kher che ka lo tum vang anih kha ka long chhiat em em. 

tunah chuan hlimna ka hmu tawh

mahse ka hmuh phak ah awm reng rawh aw

awi... aldrin... a ni em em tawh lo.

an hmeh te thleng thleng a i hriat chak tak chu le😩

whats for dinner?(convesation)

ill ask you okhoney whats for dinner? (after married)

ka mawi der ṭhin tih chhut chhuak tawh bawk sia.

ka duh che tih chu i hrethiam khawp ang

love you like i cant have you at all

i don't want to seem obsessive but there is not a day that i don't think about you

i duh zawng zawng nei vek rawh hlu bawih

ka inpal thlu nawk nawk a. mahse ka duh na che hi chu a dik zinga mi a ni

mizoram chhuah san chu ka chak khawp mai. a rei tawh. mahse i awm ve kher hi alawm. ka hmangaih phah vek

i am so thrilled to when i will meet your babies

i know theyll turn out fine

i know they have a great father

my crushes never know it from me for certain reason 

mizoram chhuahsan ka tum rilruk min thlak thei tu awmchhun

but i am willing to make an exception

because i know weelll be good friends 

your cancelled plans on the trip to myhouse/whereilive

tiang em em a mi ka ngaih leh ka vei ka hre ngai lo.

limit kha i rawn exceed chiang rap

ka duhsakna che hi midang hmuh ve ka phal lo 

i rawn kal ring lo tawkin khami zing khan ka nghak char char che 

you made me your priority

wanna massage your thighs after your sore play

i mean do u play football 

i just assume you do

stop calling me bro

i dispise that 

back in the college we pretend like we don't care each other 

but on the other hand be careers each other even when we cant speak to eachother 

you asked me a permission to smoke

i mean who does that

i stopped talking to him

because we might never meant to be 

 your hollows in all the meridiems

ka ngai che e

im sorry i went silent on you

i do that to my mother too

we have nothing in common 

opposite attracts😌

i sit in the front row seat

you at the far back

think i found the 1

about time

we are so different though

the sadness you caused will haunt me forever

but i want you to know 

i didnt history class cuz of u

i am not like that

the things that you do for love

you dedicated yourself to protect me

somehow you still made me tears

please dont hate me

but i miss you so much

please sing for me

i was a multi lingual

he was a patriotp

i am unsure if you like me

because you could be nice to anyone 

TIKHAN MI TI ZIAH SUH

KA NGAIH ZIA CHE HI I HRE LO

Min ning ang tih te ka hlau ve lawm

i miss you as my cogs were all gressed up

and i am overheated almost molting

and i relized i wont be spending my life with you 

so we understand each other 

no talking to each other for a month

most days

i only notce the colour of your shirt

why is everyone wearing it

and why am i not

small talks r lame 

i wanna drop the bomb 

nang aia tha chu an awm hnem ang

mahse min chhan tu kha an ni si lo

make me ur priority like you used to

min ngaihsak har lutuk a ka tui tawh lo vek

i turned off my seen recipt 

because i knew lingering around 

waiting for you was of no use

i want to leave this place 

would you wanna come with me and 

if i can't have you then

i am fed up of you 

you have your friends 

i have mine

there was no reason for us to hang out 

our favourite subjects seemed contradictory 

ka kham lo che

dawh nawn theih se

i followed you to the light

because i wanted to see if u cared

now that i can finally go back to the dark

ill be happy to live like i used to

will i?

just know that im gonna be handful 

oh you must hate me for always being dramatic and overly sad and visibily silent

i don't need More friends

i have a lot of them

grt out of my sight

my biggest fear is that youd actually like me

but i wouldn't even know

because non of us tried saying something 

its very exhausting to hate you

because there is nothing to hate

and when i brew a decision to tell you

reassured myself it is of no need

so i cancelled them again

a group of friends 

i thought everyone was gonna laugh

when i joked a us

but everyone took it seriously l

i backed off

i didn't wannt to correct them

because even if it was a joke

i still cared for you

thats muy confession to you

afraid I might mistake your kindness with love 

 am I reading it all wrong?

kan lo ni ve thei anih chuan 

ka ti tau tawh ngai lo ang tih ka tiam a che

i chungah chuan

promise to play it cool

hre ve tur chu i ni

hint ka dah hnem lutuk

i chhiar theih chauh tura post ka ngah.

i have a lot of baggage 

but will you take me for me

as i am

and as no one else

eng spiritin nge min rawn ṭham ka hre lo

ka ngai che tih thu ka sent ve ngei kha

that night 

i don't know

i was just exhausted 

from hiding

so i sent some hints

asking how you are doing 

an the project we had

that is so not me😆

but if i wanted something different 

i cant act the same way i do

that night

the goal was not to seduce you

but to have a chat...

OKAY, ill let yyou call me bro

but only under one condition

i have to be be invited on your wedding

therefore i am so getting out of here

thank you for you being you

and me being me

that should tie the knot

thinking about stealing your girlfriends

destined to sit together 

but only for a very long time

english and history professors together q

you this semester was made for us

after all of that

id sill like to ho camping with you 

are u still up for it

your friend posted you singing the song I mentioned the night we driven home together 

peurly coincidentally i guess

and the colour of brown will haunt me forever ,

because you looked so good with its 

pawi ka ti khawp mai 

tihian i kal mai tur hi

mahse tih theih . lo ve ve si

we left the house that was never built for is

wanna get in your bed and hug u for the night 

here and there

everywhere we're supposed to be

in between love and obsession 

said i missed you with a friendly tone

i meant it with my heart

dont you love me anymore 

your turn to be mad

and you are absolutely right for doing so

you deserve it.

i deserve it

now ill have to live like i used to

before i knew you

if youre not watching 

there's no reason for me to post 

ill keep silent for us

noone recomends me speak 

we were never meant to be together 

but with a sheer force of luck

our lines crossed for a while

ngai awm bik lo e🤣

commical situation 

mr rule breaker

and mr tucked in

ka pawm vek e

mahse ka tih na khum ah chuan min zai aak raah aw

i have never been this delusional

you made me your priority 

ill vow to take care of you forever

dont mistake my character with my good mood

im never gonna move on am i

i spend most of my time on your Instagram page

wtf we were both blue house 

its okay that u can't understand my love language 

kan inan loh dan hi ka duh lutuk

i bulah chuan ka pangchang ziah

ka in sit ngawt ang. hman ami te khan min hmu ta se

i dont write in a language 

youd wanna understand 

your kindness is public knowledge

i wasnt suppose to go

but my professor insist

taylor swift i hla hi tu nn mah hmeh bel suh an ti thin

mahse min chhan chhuak chiang em a ni

khami zan a intibuai zawng zawng kha ka ngaidam vek tawm

mahse nangmah chu a personal bik em ani 

dan zawh famkima

leh man hma chu bawh chhe char char a

i punisbed everyone with silence because of you

because if ur not lllisteninh 

whats the point of it if youre not hearijg

but y r u stull nice to me 

i said i forgive you but i never did

but its not what yiu think

it not because im mad at you

its because of the world 

 

tauh na tur

vui na tur

mihnring i lo awm ve a a lawmawm e🥰

sex is disgusting 

but loving him was not

thlem reng ka ngai hi i hne ngaw ang tiraw

ka hlim zat chiah chiah hi ka lungngai a ni

mahni a awm chu nuam ka ti

mahse i bula ka awm ngai loh vang a lo ni

ka favourite songs te dedicate nan tumah ka nei ngai lo thin,

ka hmuh hma che chuan

lo in humu thiam lo palh ta ila ka ngaithla peih tawh lo ang tih ka haluh vang te pawh a ni mahna. 

mahse engtin nge ka theihnghilh theihbangvche.

nitin a ka rilru a i rawn awm reng si te chuan.

might as well am i righ?

taylor swift i love song pawh ka man ve ṭan e

i had a passport you have me

whan i want your heart

i wanna have kids with you

but will that ever happen

no, right?

spend most of my time on your instagram page

viewer zawng zawng ka block pawh khan i laka ka nuar dan pakhat a ni.

mahse ka zep lo ang.

i lak ah chuan ka pangchang alawm

min duat em a..

mahnia ka tlei theih na kha khawnge a awm tak

mihribg te chu kan thiam a inang lo ṭheuh a.

mahse kan in hal tih na chu a ni lem lo

yiurre gnna be a little worked up if you love me

you over there

the one with the hair (curls)

curls i love them

can u feel how sad i am

i found the one

and i cant do anything about it 

i tried to leave long ago

but i couldn't put out the fire yet

but know that ive been thinking about it 

i blame the academic 

you dont have to love me back

let me just love you from here

Mea culpa

i avoided curses

i havent painted you yet

so lets hope that we are safe

4th sem was made for us

eng ti taka lung chhe turin nge min lo ngaih a

a let sawm leh pakhat ah ngai rawh

khmai zing khan ka nghak che tih ka sawi ngai lo ang.

mahse ka zing thawh hma inṭan na a ni tih chu thudik awmsa a ni

i nevrd call you the one

but it felt like it

engti fako a lungngai turah nge maw mi ngaih le

a let sawmpakhat zawk a ni