History the Professor act 2

 think i played i a little too cool

a vawikhatna atan hei bak bak a duh ka nei ngai lo

stage 1 ah ka kir leh ṭhin

ka thlah phal thlawt lo che a ni

ti em ema luan liam ka la nei ngai lo

enteh, kan ṭhianpa birthday anih hi

va wish ve rawh.

kan inhmuh theih na chhualam kha a ni ve bawk sia

ka nu i chungchang ka hrilh in

a dang an la tam dawn lutuk a tia

dik na kawng pawh a awm mahna

mahse tiang hi a nih ngai awm ka hre lo

kum khat in lut tlai lo ilang chuan 

tunah te hian ka kalsan tawh che a ni awm sia

ka lo hmu hma lo che chu ka va inchhir ruhm rum ve.

ka hrechhuak thut

kenawr bul ka ha dawn ka tih ni ten

lo ha ve🤣... ka plan ka thlak a

notice awmchhun inla ni zui

i was a front liner in evey form

he was the back bencher 

ka thihna khum ah min zai sak rawh aw

i hlim ber niin min sawm ve bawk la.

kan induh ta ve ve tih hi a chiang ta khawp mai.(delulu)

i realised i finally have to let you go

i was losing my mind bad, but

i will love you forever 

ka ṭhiannu i chungchang ka hrilh pawn a ning ve em em tawh ang.

yeah she knocked some senses in me

hmangaihna ka inhmeh

ka bulah lo kal leh rawh

min mamawh tawh lo ang nga.

inbiakna chhan kan nei tawh lo ang

knock some senses in me

because i am losing my mind

a lunglen thlak a

mahse ka ban phak i ni si lo

min ngai ve ngai angem le

there really is a whole another world out there.

you were happy with your friends without the presence of me

i wanna be there

but turns out i like punishing myself for no reason at all 

thank you for just being

ka atchilh dan em em che hi

ni tur kan ni lo re re ang

thudik ka hrilh che chuan kan inkar ka tichhia ang tih ka hlau bawk sia

ka duh lutuk che a ka â vek dawn

mahse inṭhianṭhat na ka ngai hlu bawk si

a hrisel miah lo ang lo nei thei ta che pawh ni ila

ka hmuh tirh aṭang tawh che kha nitin ka la ngaihtuah ṭhin

i chungchang, i thil tih, i vei zawng.

ka nun hi a inthlak chiang em a ni.

ka nui hmel i hmuh pawn ka hlim thei tawh lo tih min lo hriat sak dawn nia

ka tihil neih theih loh hi ka ban phak lo chiang em a ni

ka pawm theih deuh tur tu emaw in min hau hrep se

a them pawh ka neih theih loh che avangin he khau hi ka chhuahsan khawp ang

dik loh na kawng chi hran hran in ka hmangaih che

the truth is 

khum khua a kawl che ka tum re re hlei nem

reilo te pawh ka tan ka thlen tum chin a ni

nu, a dang an la tam lutuk i tia,

mahse tiang bak bak a duh ka nei ngai hlei nem

engtin nge ka hmuh phak a awm reng si

tun 4th semester a ka hmuh ve chauh theih?

a hrehawm ngawih ngawih lutuk

ka duh dan em em hi a hrehawm

i promise to never fall this hard again 

i am in pain

isnt it obsession 

to love you this much 

i am struck with reality in my mind

i will be sad forever 

im bigger than you

im older than you

a za thlawt lo

mahse i tan ka lo nui ṭang ṭang ang

han lungngaih viau hi ka tum ṭin a

mahse ka chungah i ṭha si 

vui na awm reng mahse

hlim ka phal loh pawh kha

ka bawhpelh leh tlangpui

i love you before your parents did

my heated rivalry 

now that its a bit managable

i will still be loving you

i never tried to have u

but i want to have you 

just dont hurt me the third time

im powerless without you

like i cant write any lines

now give me the pen

this onwards is about me now

and when i reached the stage of anger

it was short as you left me nothing to be angry about 

and this will never mean i moved on

but i eventually have to go i can finally smile again

i will never move one

know that ill be here forever 

waiting 

all eyes on me

after i told everyone 

when yiu come nearby 

thank you for the lines

but ill take it from here

back then

you sent me to two stacks of delusion

i wonder if it turned you sad

but u had a girl of your own

you were never gonna like me

so i had to move as fast

it was not good for me

sorry if you even care 3

ka lungngaihna chhan i hre lo a

keipawn i feldan ka lo chhiar sual

im sorry i move on without you🤭

but to be honest, you were nver there

i was lonely for so long

im sorry i moved on

you started giving me nothing 

but we can continue bring friends 

ka duhsak bik zia hi i hria em

memories crept in

makin me sad again 

you dont even want her

we were so commical

then why are the audience crying 

hard to let him go

cause he plays football 

running 'way classes with his friends 

but only bad enough to not get caught 

i dam tih hriat nan tal thil han post teh 

ka comment mi video ami kha like lo lang chuan i thi tawh emaw ka ti hial ang

my eyes are lazy

but id say they are waiting for you

ninawm

inṭhen tawh rawh u

i picked and dropped off my heart

next to your bed

he ramah hian awm man a awm angem le tih min inzawh tir tu...

i wanna kiss him

if he allows

im only like this because 

i like you 

alot, and it hurts

i love you so so much

maybe you too, maybe you not

i don't know

but the thing that i know for sure is that i cant have you here, 

being so kind could get you miscalculated by people like me

eye lids heavy from the tears ive wept

why you are not my 'close friend'?

its because i love you the most

and i don't want you to know that

that... is/was me, at half past 3✨(try n cm for my job)

i want you so much 

its unfair 

now im thinking of people who think that i love them. 🤮(awma, lma, jonathana)

the audacity 

ill remain faithful for u for the rest of my life 

a melh pawh ka melh ṭha peih ṭawk ania🤮

a mizia ang in tluk teeeeeeeuh lo🤢

since my childhood I dreamed of getting out of here, this town, this state...

but only you made me rethink my decisions... but still if i cant have you, here or ever, im getting the hell out of here

he smokes and all but

he doesn't need fixing 

i do

"he nau bak bak a na hi ka hre lo" an ti hrim hrim tawh(x) ang

ka lungngaih zia hi ka post kim lo.

are you actually normal 

or that you were a mastermind who also loved me, calculated all your moves before approaching me

because i still rmbr hoe my tears feell that night

Austin a kha ka hre ta🤣 ilo observative re re lo. i duh hmuh vang mai mai anih kha🤣post melone vang chu ni se ka ti mi zawh ni khan🤣

wi$hli$t

eyelids heavy

they'd be dripping 

drip drip. since the day i met

met you~

the way i don't care if he sees my cringe anymore... think i finally healed

i waited for you even if i dont believe it myself 

there's only one person 

who made me question 

whether i should leave this country or not

and we can say that he failed

you must be 'tired of/xostied' defending me

yes i know you have a girlfriend 

you dont have to show off like you never did

ever heard of 5 stages of grieve

id like to add 2 more

realisation (wtf was i doing)

disgust(eew why)

lo nghah reng che ka tum tih min hriat sak hram rawh

im making it everyone's problem 

you made me love me so much but now i have to leave?😭

so many screenshots i couldnt bring myself to delete 

 

out of all the wrong choices

this one is the wrongest

so many clothes that i dont wanna wear anymore 

cause they are embeded with you in my memories 

when u found out that the thinngs i wrote was to/for you

now that its out

wondered a bit of what u think about me

my mother wouldve surely said it wasnt health

well now that you finally know

im sort of blushing

please dont hate me for

heart with a vine

i never assumed you were my one

can i just die?

my firends are living for the tea

i never know rejection could hurt this bad

because none of them was ever serious 

as this one

ka ngai ngawt ang che

ka biak duh loh char char che kha i hrethiam chiah em

ka duh deuh neih theih loh in min lo be ve sek hi chu a ninawm ve em alawm

Lalpa hei chiah hi ka duh asin le

your exisistence was too good to be true

i ngaithlak duh phawt chuan ka hrilh vek ang che 

i know that as i told you this way

i am never gonna regret it

ill keep quiet because i love you

im 20 now, so what i felt now

mustve been so real right?  

awiiii a college pum buai tham alawm le

ka tihdan ka thla a

a result pawh a dang ngei e

i can finally rest in peace

to know that i did not kept quiet this time

trust me. if i was still gay in that universe.

id love you everywhere

this situationship that i had

it is exciting

long

way to go aldrin 

you really ruined it this time

star satliah i ni lo

ill make sure everyone knows that

im not gonna kill myself 

thats not what i usually do

but in practically dead inside

hlim ava har dawn ve

mahse nui der ka lo tum ang. 

tun semesters chauh chu

i never called it love

it was obsession

i will never regret it

pawi khawm mai. mahse i hria chu

ka thawveng huai mai

i wish that i was young and can blame it all on that

you defended my name

know that you are loved

ka ngai taeh lo ang

i inthiamlo lutuk palh ang

this is no fairytale 

no happy ending in the end

bur im sorry youll get one

 now that the sweetest thing i could do for you was leave.

i should 

you deserve it

i knew shed do it

but how could she do it 

i bula pangchang te ka chak

tih chet nan che chuan a khaw pum in a ngai si

trust me i will survive 

but will you recognise this person after it ends

this is the first time i destroyed what ive touched

i never touch anthing ever before

now that im not alloud to talk to you

every time i see you

always felt like the first time 

I blushed at the thought of you looking at me

what if the stars had already written how i felt about you

and im sure he's traumatized by ttpd as well

i want somebody to tell 

but ive already told everyone 

min hrem na tawk lo vem ni

tinge khatia i tih kher

biak che ka duh

mahse min biak duh ka ring si lo

forgive me...

i really tried 

my best to hide it

but you were so charming 

this is my eulogy to the boy who fell in love

who happens to be me

i am sorry for your loss

and i hope that everything turns out okay some day

cry to anyone you are allowd

fuck them hoes who says otherwise 

with a chance of you saying happy birthday to you in my 22nd birthday 

to never talking to each other for the rest of the semester and until I moved out

i tried to tell you

but I couldn't bring myself to it do it 

and so I told to a person who I was sure would snitch on me

no this id my fault 

i wanted to break my heart

im way too hurt to be happy again

but ill try to smile more because i dont want you to blame yourself 

someone please save me from him😭

noones at my side

no really, if the nicest i could do for you was leave 

so let it be

3 days grief is enough for you

tarmit i vuah

magnum opium

i used to climb to the roof

so that i xan let you out in a paper

now im brave as fuck

you could have had this

but i respect your decision 

chang hi chuan chhan dan tur mai pawh hi i hre lo ṭhin a ni awm e

i wont curese you you kind soul

if i never have boarded that train

i would have been fine

now im falling behind in everytging 

and im falling apart

tikhan kan inṭhen tihna a mi?

hei bak bak chu a awm tawh chuang lo ang

hunyy a fel em avangin engmah ka sawi lo ang

in pahnih tanin ka lo ngawi ang

a thinlung kha a ṭha ania

nangmah ang tho in

she really wants us together 

happy

i coulve shut up

but see i was losing my mind

i couldn't play it cool anymore 

im sorry that i told you

he was embarrassingly kind to me

ill fine another person 

but he'll never be someone i love msuch as you

i will confess,

never again 

think about it 

have i ever lied to you

i said i missed you

kept quiet when the group confronted me

ill be happy to be your what could have been 

thank you for not telling anyone 

but i really don't mind

goodbye Cuneiform tablets

ka zahpaui thlawt lo

chhan in hre duh em

ka hmangaih dan a thianghlim em a

i believe you wanted to keep me safe

and thats why you rann

you my be afraid that I might kill myself but I am already dead inside

he hmangaihna hian min ti a vek

tu emaw in min chhan hram teh u

hepa hian min ti a vek dawn

ill rest in peace 

if i had to travel back 4months ago and told myself i had a crush on a classmate . he would'nt have known who you were

that was wonderstruck

a lo hrilh khanglang a kan inkawm theih tawh loh phah alawm

rel a kan haw khan maw.

ka mu tluan

chhan chu ka harh apiang khan ka ṭap zel a

you never wanted these

but such things happen in a lifetime

im never gonna love again

cotton picking season 

not a dandelion but im gonna wish anyway

my love for you grew old(wiser)

i dont wanna stay here anymore 

have i ever lied to you??!!

i have alot to say

but to sum it up

'sorry'

now i never wannna talk to you again

you are as kind as i remembered

ka inpawm duh miah lo mahse nangmah vangin ka tho hma tawh

i stopped on playing it safe yesterday

it is going to be a willie may

it would be selfish of me

if i couldnt fulfill her wishes(hun)

the cost of me loving one person 

made a lot of friends break up

im gonna love

but this time 

with dignity 

ill never forgive myself 

for making you worry

will you finally kiss me

after youre done with everyone before me

don't destroy yourself for a boy

dawt ka hrilh che em ni

vawi engzat nge ka duh che tih ka tihlan tawn.

kan tan pawh hian a hrehawm zozai asin

kan ṭhut khawm laia mi chhuahchhal pawh khan ka ngawih tlat kha 

thudik chu hrilh lo che mah ila dawt erawh chu ka sawi lo ang

laat night i thought i moved on

i was so worried😅

now that im free of being caged

youre still out of reach

but at least i can love you without my chest getting dragged to the floor 

i held him hostage by deactivating account 

i will hold him forever🫨

ruatpuii thiamloh a awm lo

pawm thlapin ka chan che alawm

min hau hrep tal la

ngaih i ti ṭha lo e

ka thil hlauh(loss) ropui ber i ni

and im sorry

you dont owe me anything 

nangmah vangin ka piangthar ka ti duh miah lo.

mahse pianthar ka i ti nuam lehzual ⭐

rel a kan haw lamapang a thilthleng kha,

a hrehawm daaaan chu, tumah ka hrilh ngam si lova, chu rilru tih ruah nan airtel twoer bulah ka wlak ziah zingah ka tih kha.⭐

chaun rel ah khan ka rawn phei tawh loh chhan chu maw, ka harh apiang khan ka ṭap zel a, a hrehawm lutuk ⭐

now you tell yourself you should have known because my actions and behaviours were unusual

can we like still hang out

why would this have to be a big deal

min ngaidam hlauh mai lang chuan a lawmawm ngawt ang

(midang aiin i danglam a ni tih ka hria alawm)

"im sorry"see? its not that hard

now say it to him

i promise things wont remain awkward 

if you could ever forgive me

ngaihdam dil a hun ve ta in ka hria

a va har ve mahse

now for the last time

show me how much of an angel you are

forgive me for what i did

bro tihpalh lutuk aw

hmangaih lo che ka tum hmasa alawm, a harsa khawp mai, mahse ka lo tum zel ang

a in ngaihdam theih hram em?

okay now i tell myself 

dont apologise 

you will worsen thibgs

I just covered 164 times how to say sorry to you

wish i was strong enough to apologise 

i broke what i love the most

i broke who i loved the most

ill never say sprry to you because that could lead to breaking more things

not because of my ego

tihpalh ti ka tum a

tuman ṭul an ti bawk si lo

im not allowd to say sorry

engkim ka tichhe vek. 

theih hram chuan min ngaidam rawh

dear al, do not ruin the friendship

you wont live to regret it

please dont hate me forever

forgive me

this is the betrayal of best of friends

ka phatsan che a

phatsan ka ni bawk

KA INTHIAMLO LUTUK

MIN NGAIDAM HRAM RAWH

i dont wanna call you up

because i know for suer how wrong ive bee

thi ang tluk ka ni

min la ngaidam ve duh angem le

mi ngaihdam loh chuan ka rawn let leh tawh lo ang

I only want your forgiveness 

not you

not anyone 

just that

i just hope my friends are here to hug me like a blanket 

a crime to love you

ill serve my way out in prison

hei bak bak a lungngaihna chuang ka mamawh tawh hlei nem.

it can last me a lifetime 

ka inchhirna hi nawr sawn a ni leh tawh lo ang... nawr sawn theih loh 

my grief and remosrse will never be carted away

i got millions of ways to apologise to u

but i couldn't bring myself to say one

ṭhian inkar ah chuan inphatsanna lian tak a ni

ṭhian ṭha angin min ngai a.

ka lo phatsan che ta si

someone will love me

carry me away

and you wouldnt even notice

 

sorry imma show-off 

im a showman i cant help it 

lo ngai mah rawh.

kei anga hmangaihtu ka tawn ve hunah chuan

min ngaidam lo mawlh ang tih hi ka hlau ber

va let leh thei ilang chuan ka inhau hrep ang

ka thil neih ka lo hre lo anih kha 

tihchhiat phet ka lo tum

i didnt know what i had

i tried to destroy it

ka sawichhuah kha a ngai

ka thil lo neih a hlu tih ka hriat chhuah nan ka sawichhuah a ngai

i was greedy

i wanted more than what i had

wow, how dare i

how even dare i

ti bak bak a ngaihdam dil chak ka la nei lo

hunn in a phal der mai bawk si lova

ka hria alawm

tiang hian a ni dawn tih

kan inṭhianṭhat na ka tichhe dawn tih

phatsan ka ni dawn tih

ka inchhir dawn tih ka inhre bawk

mahse ka ti tho

ka hriat tir che kha ka inchhir maih lo

engnge maw ka inzir dawn tih ka inhriat vang aniang

well, you live and you learn

see i still do it even after i knew

i dont know, was i selfish?

what was i thinking 

why do i have to break something so precioius

and im not allowd to say sorry until one more year

whyd u do it to regret it

the damage is already done

what have i done

but you have to forgive me

dont apologise...

let it be

for the sake of him

what you did...

it was beyond horrible

and after all that 

you still tried to protect me

think i finally healed

but you you ever see me the same

i guess not

i don't deserve to say sorry

and so, there... i close the chapter

for good.

in conclusion.

i am the problem 

im not awfully sorry 

because i learnt something

i will be grateful forever but i have to move on

well if you excuse me

i have an exam to attend

turns out i was only using you🖤❤️♣️

you know theres somebody out there for me

i didn't went all in with you on the table🃏

wow, i almost ruined all of me

applause/lets give a hand for the drama

i may have just caused 😁

i don't deserve to say sorry

i have never had anything more intense than this, im gonna give you that

planning to go back to my old valley

i promise to never be that hurt for anyone ever again

such a shame that youre gonna hate me now

because right now im not smiling for you anymore 

im doing this for me and me only

thank you for protecting me

helping me hide

but i was wondering if there was more

it was shortlived than anticipated

what if i dont care anymore 

i played with his heart

will he ever forgive me 

im gonna tell myself 

i did it for art

but you were so good

i am proud of you

dont blame me for taking this lightly 

you didn't want it either

ngaihdam dil an phal si lova

dil lovin ka kal ta mai ange

min duh ve dawn chuang lova.

ka khalh ka khalh loh che chuan ka tihchhiat rêng loh ang che

3 of my friends wont allow to say sorry to you 

i left like a bitch

and i almost felt sorry 

i duh chuan intihtheih nan hmang rawh

wow that was an intense span of 3 months

can we just laugh it off

I tried not to think about you when my favourite song play 

but guest how I am doing

bro, ka ti zahthlak khawp mai

april 29 independence day 

why does it have to be exam

whyd you make me overthink 

that you blocked or mute me or something

but the question still remains

will you ever forgive me

hope we end up smiling in the end

when we see each other when we're older

how was it when all the puzzle pieces fit together 

pray for me

kan thian ho in ka hming an sawi rik leh ka ring tawh lo

i tried playing it cool

but, not saying sorry seems so wrong

now that you don't like me anymore 

aldrin, was this worth it? 

you broke two people's heart (me and him)

a sial ve e tia min nuih liam mai mai ka beisei 🤞🏻

i did it for art with a chance of you

plus i am ashamed

chhaih che ka chak

ka thin i dek vir

ka move on hi pawi i ti em

tih lo hmel e🤣

you have your sources

i have mine

she was an angel

yours were just a rattler

aldrina bak bak a crush nei messy ka la hre lo🤣

but then again

my friend reminded me how true my love for you was

she gave me senses

why the fuck was i